I Am Thankful For the Scars........

i am thankful for the scars.
the reminders, there forever.
for everyone to see,
if they should look.
i am only human.
i have struggled.
i have failed.
and still, despite it all
the world-consuming
soul-numbing
pain of loss
and the loneliness
that came with it...
i've walked on.
my blood
the stepping stones
that no one could ever steal
beneath my feet.

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I could let myself be eaten alive with rage.
Screaming from a mountain top
About the injustice of everything,
about the hurt, the helplessness.
But I am not helpless anymore.
And I am not a victim.
I am a survivor of many things
And true,
it has made me harsh and often bitter.
There is a deeper beauty left, however,
When all the girlish naivety was torn away.
Something that will last when youth has long since passed.
Something I can forever be proud of.
You will never
Debase me again.
And whenever I kneel, know I do it
On my whim
For my pleasure.
I am no one's dog.

I am no man's whore.

And every flaw and imperfection I possess
I will use a tool.
I am tired of hating myself
For what I was
And what I cannot be.
Instead, I suppose
I will focus on who I am.
The pain that you gave me-
And what I will make of it.